Kristin TV

I QUIT,
how's that for you?

who else remembers the show Pepper Ann??

Chiodos is amazing.
TRULY amazing.

So, Monday there is this stupid field trip for "building teamwork".
This is gay.

But I've given up.
I've decided to focus on things that could never betray me, which is books and art. I'm actually getting good with this drawing thing. I could use a few lessons on using oil pastels, but hopefully Aves can show me. Charcoal still is kinda way messy, but hopefully I'll be able to use those well by the end of this class. My next playtoy is watercolours, but I want to get really good before I start using them.
So that's my new light.

Also, season finales suck.. Doctor's was.. BAM and zing and whatnot.. so good, yet so frustrating that we have to wait forever to see the premiere. Oh well.

But yeah, that was my input for the day.
Here's my b-day wish list for all of you(this can extend to xmas, it just depends on what i get for my bday):
cash(always), a Strathmore recycled paper 8x11 1/2 spiral sketchbook, more drawing pencils(i always loose them), Barnes and Noble gift card, Target gift card, subscription to Q magazine(it's British, they have it at B&N), the MCR messenger bag [link]

~Gee

learning what to say
everything messed up
happiness pursued?





fogged up memories
forgot how to be alive
eyes open at last.





confusion sets in
should i go this way or that?
everything unsure.

Had a really weird dream.
It involved Nirav and no I don't wanna hear it from any of you.

Reading Cupcake, the third in the Gingerbread series. It makes me really want a boy. A Shrimp (not the food, that's his name in the books). Some artsy kid who gets me hooked on espresso and cappacino and whatnot.
BLECH! I'm going insane with boredom.
I've got my little spy ring going, Me at my computer, holed in my room, bringing food and drinks up, my cat keeping window lookout for me.
I haven't been out of the house since me and Stasi walked around my neighborhood, and I really wish someone was here, because just that simple walking was fun enough for me, playing at the park and everything, and I'm not going by myself, so someone come walk with me!
Yes, I know, none of you will.
Missing my dear Mikey like crazy.

But yes,
bye bye.
Gee

Headache.
Leaving town tomorrow, do not want to.
Empty feeling.
Big sigh.
Mikey also going out of town soon.
Got sidewalk chalk.
Some new music.
Have to pack for stupid trip.
Hating weddings.
Hating most people in general. (not exactly hate, just uber frustration.)
Wishing I wasn't all alone-ly
Wishing that wishing worked.
Wanting everything to go away.
Wanting something to focus on so this feeling will go away.
Wanting to not be like this.
Wanting little things to not bother me.
Wanting to find something to keep me going,
Because I don't know how far I can go by myself.

you are all being emo.

stop it.

watch zim for about 5 hours and then play croquet.

drink caffiene!


~Gee

Tomorrow Mikey is coming to Gerard's house and they are going to play croquet in the front yard. Yes, the neighbours will probably be a little frightened. So will Gerard's family, more than likely. However, Gerard and Mikey are both incredibly pleased with themselves. You will get an updated account of the croquet insanity, including any broken objects or injured players/innocent bystanders. Yes, they will both thoroughly enjoy themselves and the entire game will either end up with the balls being thrown or the two on the ground in a fit of laughter. We shall all see.

Upcoming events! (After tomorrow) Are of course, July 13, Harry Potter movie number 5 comes out. July 20 is the midnight party for the July 21 release of the final Harry Potter book installment. Many shall weep due to the series end, and you will not be able to find me for probably a week, due to the fact that my nose will be buried in the fantasticness that is Harry Potter. If the book ends as I like it, then you will all find a cheerful entry about how great J.K. Rowling actually is. If the book ends and I am angry with it, you will all find a very angsty Gerard yelling WHYY!!! WHYYYYYYYYYY!!! OH THE INHUMANITY OF IT ALL! I CAN'T BELIEVE J.K. WOULD DO THIS TO ME!! You know, stuff like that. If the book has a sad ending, then you will have a boo hooing Gerard writing even angstier posts such as OMG THAT WAS SO SAD I CANNOT BELIEVE IT IS OVER WAHHHHH. You will probably get that anyway on account of it being a part of my life since 5th grade... but I digress.

Also, you all need to remind me that July 31 i must make a cake for Harry. Because it will be his birthday. Mikey-remind me to get candles!

So much goes on in July. But that is all for today.

~Gee.

Mikey made dolls of us! It's actually relatively accurate, except the hair, both of our hair is different that that. but look!



how cool is that? So anyways, family here, and I'm EXHAUSTED. As usual. but moreso. heh.
Hopefully Mikey can come and play croquet.


I think we surpassed our nerdiness yet again!

<3 Gee.

So, not alot has happened. Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix hits theatres July 13! Be prepared! Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows hits bookstores midnight of July 21! I will be unable to reach for a few days after that. Just letting you all know.

On other news, DJ and I split. He was asking too much, I was giving too much, it just wasn't working..
For those of you who care.

uh..
so..
yeah.
bye.

So everyone lately has been posting really sad ljs. So I have decided to put an end to this nonsense and post a non-sad lj. On one hand, I finally found my old Green Day cd, International Superhits. I'm very glad, because I missed it. I also found my old old armwarmers, Stasi and Casey you should both remember me wearing these everyday. My black ones with the little round stud things and the loops and the ribbon thing... yeah.. hard to explain, but you remember them. I wore them everyday, I'm surprised they're still in one peice. heh.

So, decided that being home alone all day is very productive. I've been able to practice my piano alot more, and even though it doesn't seem like I'm getting far, I've noticed I'm able to pick up specific keys now, and that is kind of exciting. I've been listening to alot of Tori lately, who makes me wish I could bang something good out on the piano. But oh well, I guess I must keep trying, one day I'll be able to play more. But until then..

Stasi and Casey, why are you two so sad lately? What's going on? You've both got me worried. :-/. We all need to hang out, and I'm not just saying that. When I get ungrounded we're hanging out. I mean it.

So it's hard to believe that I've been out of school for almost 3 weeks. Even harder to believe that I'm a senior.. I'm terrified, yet thrilled. Dunno what weighs what out, but it's there.

I've been re-evaluating alot of things, rethinking, thinking in general. (It's very dangerous being alone in the house all day.) Nothing major has come out of it, I've just been realizing things that I should've noticed before, realizing exactly how far we've come...
Realizing we haven't really gone anywhere at all.

So magically, I got signed back into my lj...which is wierd cuz it wasn't letting me before. Yeah. So nothing exciting is happening here. School is over. I'm still kinda grounded. Have to get a job. Mikey is going out of town,and I haven't been able to hang out with her. I haven't seen my mom in almost two weeks. I've read. Alot. I've been happy and I've been sad. I've waited by the phone. I'm pathetic.

In my sheer amazingness, I have found a computer for this posting. yay for me. So, I wanted to let you all know some updates, not that there are really that many, but there are some.

First order of business, today was the last day of school. Yay for me, I know. Monday is graduation, where there will be mucho tears and whatnot, considering Mikey and DJ are both graduating, and moving on to college life.

Second in the order of business, Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix is coming out in theatres July 13, I hope to see you all there!! Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, the last installment in the series, comes out July 21, hope to see you all at the midnight party!!

Thirdly, I have decided to write a story, or something, not really sure how but I'm still working on details, so you'll probably never hear about that again... just thought I'd have something else to write.

Stasi, you haven't posted in a while, and that worries me. Post something so I know that you are at least still alive and whatnot.

Many many hearts to all of you,
Gee.

so kinda grounded from some stuff. you can all thank DJ for lending me his psp for internet use. dunno when i'll be on, but that's not important. anyway, off to your previously scheduled lives.

I technically only have to go back to school 5 times. So yeah, I'm almost done with this year. DJ's last day is tomorrow, and idk about Mikey. I'm so ready for the year to be over and yet so terrified. I'm afraid of being alone, as we all know. I know I won't truely be alone, but I will be without two people I care about.. they won't be at school with me, But I guess I will have to deal with that when it comes.
We all face challenges like this don't we?

Kara made me a cool cone incense burner. It's very simple, and pretty in its simplicity. I love handmade gifts.

So it's very sad, when your internet cuts off so much you are iming on your phone and sitting at your computer. my internet hates me.

Off to finish the great gatsby, since our test on it is tomorrow.

-Gee

*Mikey, don't forget the letter. I need to read it so I have a response ready.

So yes.
Friday was Carowinds!! It was a school trip, and it was awesome!! DJ wouldn't ride roller coasters though, but I rode them anyway. Took Mikey on her first one!! Very proud of that one, I am.

I feel complete. Almost untouchable. I know this feeling will end, but until then I'm feeling great. Better than I have in a very, very, long time, probably better than I've ever felt. I'm happy. I'm actually wearing color, and lots of it, as much as I can (for those of you who knew me last year and the year before that, you would know how big of a deal that really is). I am happy with myself, I am happy with my friends, I am happy with my boyfriend.

Therefore, I am not happy with the decisions that are coming up. Mikey and DJ both graduate soon.. scarily soon. Therefore DJ and I get to make that whole breakup decision.. I am NOT looking forward to that one..

On the other hand, 10 days of school left.Not really 10, cuz the last week of school is basically all exam days, which aren't as long as regular school days.

Well.. I'm gonna go now, because I really have nothing else left to say, and I have to read chapters 5 and 6 of the Great Gatsby for the Thorne.
Mikey, answer your phone.

~Gee

Everything fixed with Stasi
Kara got pretty flowers from Zach (oooh!! So Cute!!)

They need to show the Big Gay Sketch Show everyday!

Oh, I got toothpaste, which I know is always exciting.

Off to get water!

yay for me.

Conspiracy Theory:
George W. Bush.

Nuff said.
^^

I need toothpaste.

Anyone who can help me with this desperate need is a hero.
Actually, I think we're about to go get some.

End Transmission.

P.S. Happy Beltane tomorrow!

Mikey and I went over to Friendly Center today. We terrified the masses, and ended up getting some really good stuff, including a CONSPIRACY FILES BOOK!!! I know! It's amazing!! It says that Antarctica is a conspiracy by the Nazis. I know. Along with George Bush's presidency. Yeah, it's pretty much an amazing book.

Also got Interview with a Vampire (I know, I'm a few years behind), and I was sitting here watching it and CRACKING UP!! bwah, I love my life. hehe.

So in other news, we have like, less than 20 days left of school, which saddens me immensely, because Mikey and DJ will be graduating. I will be stuck in school, without them, and that means I actually have to make decisions on my own!! and find a ride home.. I hope I'll be able to drive by then.. heh..

So never ever ever get off brand eyeliner, because it makes your eyes all itchy and turns your eyelids into red death traps that make you want to claw your eyes out.
No seriously, I got the off brand of some eyeliner, and it really turned my eyelids red and they itch and burn and hurt very badly, so I would recommend not getting off brand eyeliner.

Off to go play with the new REAL brand makeup I got, because I'm that amazing, and I am bored.

~Gerardy.